Sunday Morning

Be a Creative Spirit!

I came upon the realization that this is a plan for Life and not a quick fix. Today is an official restart and I am really going to try not to abuse YOU turns. Got to get ready for church.......

Wacky Wacky Wacky

I tell you what....I had a really nice long blog the other day and when I went to post.......poof!!!! nowhere to be found. It has been a very busy month for me....I start a new job on November 1st and the current job is keeping me on in contract labor position. Can I take the stress? Don't know....but I will find out. This is a way of life so I am not going to anguish over how long it takes me to lose weight. It doesn't mean I am giving up.......I will never give up. I am just going to enjoy the ride and not stress. Stress will kill you!!!! I have a couple of outfits on layaway and I need to lose a few pounds for them to be comfortable.....so stress just work at getting healthy. I know in order to get additional life insurance, I need to lose weight....I will get there. Just thought I would check in and see how life is going

Company Picnic

okay okay......I have been bad today. Company picnic at Hubbar's Farm which consisted of Fried Chicken or Ham.....green beans and corn and any type of cobbler you can imagine. Tried to limit what I put on my plate but it wasn't low fat healthy food for sure.

First day of fall and the temp is over 90 degrees. What the heck???? I think the weather is confused. I really need to do some yard work and get ready for the colder weather but it is so hot outside. Maybe I can do some shrub cutting?? That would burn some calories......

Tomorrow is another day to start a plan.......I will just have to eat healthy the rest of the day and come up with a plan or a mantra to keep me focused on what I need to do........

TGIF

I am so thankful today is Friday! I baked a white cake with chocolate icing a few days ago and I have been indulging.....overly so. Why do I do this to myself? I am good from breakfast until dinner time. When I get home......katie bar the door! It is almost as if I tell myself.....self, you have been so on program all day....you deserve to splurge....and then I can't stop! I feel like shouting......I'm mad as Hedouble hockey sticks and I ain't going to take it anymore! You think that will work?

It is so aggravating because I know how I should eat and I don't. I feel so out of control. I have read all the self help books I can get my hands on. I have walked 10,000 steps a day and felt fantastic. Oh, if I could go on the biggest looser and let them make me suffer and not think.....

uhhhhh wIhere am I?

Yesterday was a twilight zone day. Work has been very stressful and I self medicated with carbs galore!!!!! Not sure why I feel unworthy of success or maybe I just don't really want to lose the 4 pounds that goes away and comes back at their own will. Oh yea, was really weird.....I got a optical migrane from looking at numbers and then it was full blown headache from trying to see past all the wavy things in the corner of my eyes. I hate days like that....thankfully they don't happen often. Anyway....I didn't feel attached all day.....does that make sense?

I am really starting to get excitied. I leave for Vegas in 2 weeks; however, I was really wanting to be about 20 pounds lighter. Augh..........

Sunday

Wow.....I was going to try to blog everyday but that hasn't happened. I was going through some boxes that we moved and I found a journal where I was disgusted with my weight. The last entry in the journal was right after my youngest son was born....he is 19 years old. I noticed that I kept saying the same thing over and over through the different entries.....well, that motivation didn't do a darn thing for me. I think I need to regroup now that I know those words didn't help and I weighed less than I do now. :(

Well, I need to get my day started and think this thing out.......you can't imagine how I am feeling right now.