Company Picnic

okay okay......I have been bad today. Company picnic at Hubbar's Farm which consisted of Fried Chicken or Ham.....green beans and corn and any type of cobbler you can imagine. Tried to limit what I put on my plate but it wasn't low fat healthy food for sure.

First day of fall and the temp is over 90 degrees. What the heck???? I think the weather is confused. I really need to do some yard work and get ready for the colder weather but it is so hot outside. Maybe I can do some shrub cutting?? That would burn some calories......

Tomorrow is another day to start a plan.......I will just have to eat healthy the rest of the day and come up with a plan or a mantra to keep me focused on what I need to do........

TGIF

I am so thankful today is Friday! I baked a white cake with chocolate icing a few days ago and I have been indulging.....overly so. Why do I do this to myself? I am good from breakfast until dinner time. When I get home......katie bar the door! It is almost as if I tell myself.....self, you have been so on program all day....you deserve to splurge....and then I can't stop! I feel like shouting......I'm mad as Hedouble hockey sticks and I ain't going to take it anymore! You think that will work?

It is so aggravating because I know how I should eat and I don't. I feel so out of control. I have read all the self help books I can get my hands on. I have walked 10,000 steps a day and felt fantastic. Oh, if I could go on the biggest looser and let them make me suffer and not think.....

uhhhhh wIhere am I?

Yesterday was a twilight zone day. Work has been very stressful and I self medicated with carbs galore!!!!! Not sure why I feel unworthy of success or maybe I just don't really want to lose the 4 pounds that goes away and comes back at their own will. Oh yea, was really weird.....I got a optical migrane from looking at numbers and then it was full blown headache from trying to see past all the wavy things in the corner of my eyes. I hate days like that....thankfully they don't happen often. Anyway....I didn't feel attached all day.....does that make sense?

I am really starting to get excitied. I leave for Vegas in 2 weeks; however, I was really wanting to be about 20 pounds lighter. Augh..........

Sunday

Wow.....I was going to try to blog everyday but that hasn't happened. I was going through some boxes that we moved and I found a journal where I was disgusted with my weight. The last entry in the journal was right after my youngest son was born....he is 19 years old. I noticed that I kept saying the same thing over and over through the different entries.....well, that motivation didn't do a darn thing for me. I think I need to regroup now that I know those words didn't help and I weighed less than I do now. :(

Well, I need to get my day started and think this thing out.......you can't imagine how I am feeling right now.

Friday September 14th 2007

What is it about hard work? Not so good on the food, water or exercise today but I thought I would go ahead and start a point of reference. I have been attempting to follow the You On A Diet......very unsuccessful so far I need to add, since the first of the year.

Several things have happened to put up stumbling blocks for my success. I was a full time student in the MBA program at IWU. We moved in March and I also started a new job after working for the same company for 5 years. I fell and fractured my foot in July and have had to wear a walking boot until yesterday. Not to mention a slew of other issues. Tommorrow is a new day and it looks it will be the first day of my life line journey.